Started my 2023 with SUCH enthusiasm and conviction. Full throated energy and JOY! “I did it! I’ll DO IT AGAIN!!” was my motto!
2023 then proceeded to kick my ass. Testing my resilience, again. It DID do it again! Just not the things I was hoping for! Cancer grew. Chemo stopped working. Gonzo, my chicken, drowned in a duck pond. Our dog-daughter Charlotte died suddenly. Had to sell my Austin dream house. Got the flu on moving day, and it was just my husband and I doing all the work. A promising lead in a film that was hopefully to film in the Spring! It was put on hold. Then…actors strike, leaving me with a whole year of no work. ZERO!! Yet never have I actually worked so hard! Ending the year with a Covid Christmas. BAM!! Covid side effects are aligned with my past year. Everything tastes like shit.
But, all was not lost. I’m cancer free! Again! Have 2 new rescue dogs, a roof over my head. Painted. Wrote. Loved. Met and befriended amazing new people. Deepened existing friendships. I still hold my value close, even when other do not. I am rich with gifts. I am worth every penny, dime, dollar, and hug.
A hearty FUUUUCK YOU to the adversarial energy of this past year. I dust you off my shoulders like dried bird shit and keep moving forward, because I am a champ. (Side note: as a crawling baby, I once ate bird poop off the carpet in the new house. Now when I see bird poop, my taste-buds can recall. Super fun).
Looking ahead to 2024, facing the very real threat that this could be America’s last year as a democracy. Think of that!!! Seriously! Then act on that. I know I will. I love freedom. I want to keep it. I appreciate elections! Love saying what I think out loud! I appreciate my life outside of some forced, ideological hell-camp.
I will vote for the person who keeps trump the fascist/liar/rapist/fraud out of office. Right now that person is Biden. I will set aside my love of choice to simply stick with the enormity of the task at hand; keep our democracy. We can get back to bickering over policies once it is safe. Choice is not safe right now, in so many ways.
I’m angry at a lot of things right now. I won’t let my anger define me, but I also won’t deny it. Authenticity, right? I’m also counting on my anger to hoist my broken, depressed soul to keep me on the front lines of my life. Anger can be useful! A tool. The world is off kilter. Humanity is on a shit slide into something unrecognizable. My sense is not to look away, but to do what I can to mitigate it. Tap the water. Start a ripple. Create a wave. That’s the plan. Always has been for me. I may be small, but I know that when I join others with the same intentions and energy, there’s the possibility for a tsunami of good. Let’s go, people!! New year ahead!!
I look forward to creating this year!! Lots of Art!! My studio is ready with just the right ratio of chaos and organization
. I look forward to good change. I look forward to championing you, and all your endeavors! I surely hope to laugh more this year! We shall see. That will take some digging, but I’ve got a pretty good shovel.
Sending you love and strength. I know things have been hard. I see it, and I feel you. Hang in there! I promise to do my best to CHOOSE positivity, and I hope you can too. Be safe! Wishing you a hopeful new year! Let’s at least hang on to hope. Much love to you! XoMo
"My sense is not to look away, but to do what I can to mitigate it. Tap the water. Start a ripple. Create a wave. That’s the plan. Always has been for me. I may be small, but I know that when I join others with the same intentions and energy, there’s the possibility for a tsunami of good. Let’s go, people!! New year ahead!!"
Beautifully said. Authentic. Real. It's been a hard hard year for so many and maybe that's more the norm, but in it what I'm sensing is we have to make good what we can make good. Happy New Year Mo! You are great!
Mo! You are marvelous!!!!!